wish I can spit out everything whenever I want to regardless how others might feel or think about me

I consider myself reasonable enough to get mad and let it out on you

but somehow I just can't do that

guess I have to swallow fire ans pretend nothing is going on like a fucking pacificst

like I don't know anything

I am lost in the middle of nowhere , waiting for someone to come for me at the corner

stupid I say to myself regretting I couldn't save myself from this world